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  During the night I was awakened to the sounds of Aislinn sobbing hysterically. Realising she must be having a nightmare, I tried to shake her from it to spare her any further anguish. She turned back to me, staring at me with a fearful expression as though me being there had shocked her.

  Perhaps she had not expected to wake with me there. Yes, I feel confident I made the right decision in not taking advantage of her eagerness last night. Clearly she is not as ready as she believes to have me in her life in all ways.

  I was relieved when she snuggled into me side, nearly burrowing into me. Well then, perhaps she does find security within me arms after all. I wrapped me arms about her, holding onto her tight as I soothed her back into a restful slumber.

  The new day only served to reinstate me perpetually lingering desire fer her.

  I awoke to the feel of the fullness of Aislinn’s breasts pressing into me already swelling organ. She had me cock grasped between the ample flesh of her creamy breasts and was gliding along it, back and forth, as though encouraging the blood to rush there, pooling its ache in me organ. I had to repress a groan, fer I dare not interrupt, wishing her to continue.

  Oh dear God! Does she realise what it is she is doing to me? Is she merely seizing the opportunity to take advantage of me whilst I slumber fer her sole pleasure, or is she rather trying to drive me to the edge so I will lose control and take her with a combustible ferocity?

  I felt her lift her head and glance up and quickly made certain me face did not betray me awareness as I endeavoured to remain undiscovered as long as I could to enjoy her examination of me without being held accountable. I knew I was a disgraceful cad fer doing such a thing, but oh how badly I did want to let her enjoy doing these things to me, to see how far she would take it, how far I would take it.

  I really should not be pushing us both as this. Yet how can I deny the pleasure she is so willing to bestow upon me?

  While her breasts remain pressed into me, she caressed her hands across me chest, and then bending her face down, cautiously placed her lips around the tip of me organ!

  Perhaps it is true, she tries not to rouse me. Well, I shall not want to disappoint her then!

  She played with it between her full lips, pressing my swollen crown between them repeatedly as though testing it in some way. Then she squeezed it between them ‘til the whole head was contained tightly within her mouth, and abruptly popped it out with a vigourous suck.

  OH MY GOD!

  I had to grit me teeth together to keep from making a sound. But somehow I held onto it, even as she went back and commenced to swirling her luscious tongue all about it. I was delighted at how engrossed she apparently was in discovering me cock with her mouth.

  Then to me dismay I realised that through this I actually had been moaning! I felt her lift her head a little to look at me face. I ordered me eyes to remain closed.

  I wonder whether I should put an end to me charade and alert her to the fact that I am awake. Yet what would that mean? Would she cease her delightful activity? Well, no, I doubt that, yet I cannot merely allow her continue without intention of reciprocating in some way, and I certainly am not ready fer her to stop what she is doing to me, it feels far too tantalizing. Not that I wouldn’t mind reciprocating either, although as soon as I come into any form of contact with her waiting haven, there is no way I will be able to stop.

  She resumed with her explorations of me, wrapping her hand about the shaft— which had swelled larger and harder since she had been manipulating it— and held it upright. God, how I wished she were positioning herself over it at this moment, pointed straight up at her sex, waiting to be impaled upon it. How I would delight in hearing her scream with the pleasure she reaped from me hard cock!

  Then her tongue made contact near the base of me shaft, leisurely gliding up the entire length of me, back up to the top. How I tried not to squirm. Then I felt her reposition herself and suddenly she was plunging her mouth over me, taking it in as deep as she could. This time a low groan escaped me before I could stifle it, which seemed to only provoke her further. She slurped her way back up to the top of me cock, and then commenced to doing it all over again! I didn’t know how much more of this I could endure before something had to happen, though I was not certain as to just what it was going to be. Me mind began wandering over the delicious possibilities …

  I am filling her with me cock, penetrating her sweet virgin entrance, sinking into her ever so slowly as I stretch her canal with the breadth of me cock, hearing her moans and wriggling under me, observing the astonishment upon her face as to how much I fill her, how incredible me organ feels inside her.

  I smiled deliciously to meself, the notion enticing me.

  I had to hold back a gasp as I gazed upon her with her head buried over me manhood, the brilliant morning light gleaming off her abundant mane as though a crimson sunrise covered me abdomen and thighs, her mouth doing glorious things to me which me eyes could not yet see. Breathtakingly spectacular she was in the light of the morning!

  At that, I could feign sleep no longer. I placed me hand upon her hair, causing her to lift her head up slowly, bestowing me with a painfully delicious view of her mouth wrapped about me cock. The intense morning light shining in her amber eyes nearly undid me! Grasping her by the hair, I tilted me head back as she continued her talents on me, allowing the groans to come freely now. I began to move me hips in sequence with the motions, which seemed to please her, as she fervently persisted with her determined mouth upon me.

  Fer several magnificent minutes I allowed her to delight in devouring me organ with her luscious mouth, alternately stroking and tugging on her mane, and taking the liberty of reaching down to fondle her breasts. Feeling their supple flesh in me hands, her nipples responding to me as I brushed me thumbs across them only served to bring forth the rush of hot lust raging within me.

  Aislinn settled into a most tantalizing steady rhythm and I delighted in watching her head move up and down on me, her hair falling about her face temptingly as me cock disappeared over and over again into her sensuous mouth.

  And then, all of a sudden the build-up of tension was upon me. I felt the tightening in me testicles, the force of the fluid within them building up, and I knew I was powerless to do anything to stop it from coming. Though it was the last thing I wished to do, I jerked meself from her mouth, twisting away from her and curling up on me side, just as I felt the coursing through my penis. A second later, the hot fluid was spurting out of the tip of it, all over the ground beside me. I lay there lightheaded and groaning, silently praying she would not comprehend what had just happened.

  As soon as I had rolled over onto me back again, Aislinn arose before me standing directly in me view and proceeded to and stretch up tall, raising her arms high, elongating her body, her rounded breasts rising up high and pert. A breeze blew by, affecting her pink nipples to stiffen enticingly.

  I could not fight the lust as me eyes raved over her hungrily, feasting upon the sight of her voluptuous breasts. I wanted to bury me face in them, take them into me mouth. So creamy they were, giving off the impression they would be full of milk, just waiting to offer up its sweetness to me.

  I realised with embarrassment that I was staring at her with me mouth gaping as a fool in a trance. All I could think about in that moment was running me hands all over her luscious form, feeling her skin beneath me hands. Me eyes drifted downward, over the plane of her smooth abdomen and the curve of her hips, to rest upon her mound adorned with soft strawberry fluff. Just beneath it, I could detect the inflammation of her flesh.

  Sucking me must have stimulated her as well. I licked me lips, imagining what she must taste like.

  I want so badly to discover the feel of her innermost area upon me fingers, to taste her, to plunge meself deep into her.

  The thoughts of her in me mind driving me insane, I stepped forward, placing me hands upon her slender waist, slowly gliding them along her sides. Then I stunned her by
pulling her to me strongly. I smiled at her resulting gasp.

  Me mouth finding her neck again, I kissed upon it urgently. Fully aware that the lingering rigidity of me cock pressed into her belly, I heard her remarking, “The strength in your hands . . . melt me with your touch you do.”

  “Come with me into the meadow,” Aislinn suddenly suggested friskily, her face alive with hope. “We’ll lie upon the grass together.” Her childlike spirit always did awe me. How could I deny her?

  I followed her readily as a lamb as she sauntered out of the cove, watching the movement of the muscles beneath the flesh of her buttocks with each step she took, her back side just as appealing as her front, the breeze tousling her hair about alluringly. ‘Twas clear she reveled in her nakedness, even here in the light of day.

  What an intriguing woman she is!

  Aislinn made her way to the edge of the grassy area, and indicated fer me to sit. Of course, I complied with her suggestion. Then another step she took to stand right before me, brazenly placing the lower half of her body in direct line with me face, easily within me reach of me wanting tongue.

  Then she stepped forward further yet, placing one foot to the outside of me crossed legs, and the other upon the other side, so that her legs were spread with her sex right before me face. I knew what she wanted me to do, and I yearned to do it, as well: to reach around and grip her buttocks with me hand, bringing her to me mouth and reaching out with me tongue to explore the folds of her succulent flesh, burying me nose in her as I thrust me tongue upwards into her opening, encouraging the juices to flow out from her bathing me tongue in her flavour, melting her body into total surrender more with each lap of me tongue until her hot fluids gush forth upon me face with the spasms of her ecstasy. The very thought of it sent a sensation through me groin which made me cock spring forth in response.

  Oh just one lick of her sweet pussy . . . No, Donovan, you cannot tease her in that manner. You will know her in every way soon enough. Be a man and regard her as the proper woman she is, rather than allowing your lust to resort to treating her as a common whore.

  Instead, I inhaled in deeply, and the scent of her was so deliciously thick with sex I could nearly taste it in me throat.

  How it inspires me to know she desires me as much as I desire her.

  Aislinn lingered there as that fer quite a while, it seemed, tempting me, as well as teasing herself. Me mouth began salivating fer her, me head bathed in her scent, ‘til it felt as though that was all there was, it infiltrated me body. The throbbing ache I felt fer her assaulted me body relentlessly.

  At last, she lowered herself onto me, making no attempt to avoid me excruciatingly rigid organ. I felt the heat of her sex meet mine, the feminine folds of her flesh parting to nestle around me cock as she pressed her crevice against me.

  Once she had settled onto me lap, she thrust her arms about me, crushing her mouth to mine. With having to concentrate hard not to just sink meself up inside her, I just passively received the assault of her lips upon mine. Then I began responding ever so carefully, hoping to persuade hers to move in a more restrained manner, so that I could pace meself and enjoy her without taking it further than I knew we should. Nevertheless, she persisted in kissing me zealously. It was clear she strove to entice me to the end.

  Feeling her crux swelling harder, she rubbed it against me, stimulating her juices to flow out. How I longed to be buried there in her, slide up inside, those juices welcoming me in . . .

  Finally, I unleashed meself, matching the intensity of her kisses. Evidently needing a moment to catch her breath, she dipped her head back, her chest rising to meet me face.

  Unable to resist, I gathered her breasts in me hands, at last bringing me face to them, showering kisses upon the creamy, supple flesh before focusing me mouth upon the centre. Savouring the feel of her velvety nipple, I circled it with me tongue repetitively, delighting in hearing her whimper which begged me fer more. Then I drew her nipple into me mouth slowly. Aislinn sucked in her breath as I began to suck it deeply.

  I suckled her gorgeous breasts, one and then the other, over and over, making her squirm as me own organ grew harder beneath her than I would have ever imagined was possible, pressing firmer against the soft, melting flesh of her sex, impelling it open more. The scorching heat of her arousal I could feel flowing out onto me, moistening me with the slickness of it, beckoning me in. The only thing I could do was suckle harder upon her breasts, making her squirm and moan invitingly. Though what I really yearned to do was sink meself deep into her, thrusting the instrument of me arousal into her over and over until me ears were rewarded with the cries of her pleasure.

  Her squirming became more rhythmical, until she was essentially gliding the folds of her flesh along me rigid organ, enfolding me effortlessly. I was fully aware of the fact that all I need do was shift in the slightest and I would be immersed inside her hot channel rather easily. In fact, the knowledge of it was excruciating, to say the least. More than anything I wanted to be inside her in that moment.

  Yes, I wanted that. I wanted it badly. Yet I knew I could not. To do so would prove me a selfish bastard, indeed. Never in me life had I had to work so hard to restrain meself, to uphold me values, to respect her.

  I struggled to stay true, determined to be the man she so deserved, so she would never look back and regret giving up everything in her life, turning her back on her family to marry me.

  However, if she were to be the one to take me inside of her, perhaps then I could just let her carry on. Then I would not be the one forcing meself upon her, robbing her of her virtue. After all, who would I be to confiscate her source of pleasure once she makes up her mind and takes hold of it?

  But alas, she did not. Instead she seemed perfectly content to merely wriggle herself back and forth along me rigidity, the evidence of her arousal saturating me, driving me insane. And then her moans became longer, deepening, until she was nearly screaming as a banshee next to me ear.

  Her sex I felt pulsating against me cock, her molten juices flowing out onto it, and I knew she had achieved her climax. How I wanted to be inside her, to feel the muscles of her sex clinching around me organ, milking me. Just with the knowledge, fer a moment I thought I would spurt again all over her.

  Panting desperately, Aislinn’s eyes locked onto mine, and I understood she was entreating me. Clenching her arms tighter, I grunted long and low several times, attempting to ward off me unrelenting temptation fer her. Me need fer her had escalated to the point of torture.

  If I had it me way, if I was a selfish man who cared nothing fer her, I would not hesitate to plunge meself deep within the cavern of her sweetness and drive into her ‘til she were not able to breathe, unloading all these years of pent up sexual tension and desire deep into her. But I will not dominate her as that, risk her fearing me, resenting me. I must suppress these depraved thoughts of her, wipe away their very existence.

  I knew in that very moment she had to be removed from me, or I would be in dire risk of surrendering to the animal within who demanded to devour her. There was no more deliberating it. It would happen— if I did not strengthen meself and be the man I needed to be. Thus, with that, I gently pushed her back, restraining her lips from kissing me anymore. The shattered look upon her face stabbed at me, made me ache to reconsider.

  Nonetheless, I remained strong.

  “NO! Pull away you cannot . . . Oh, please do not stop!” she shrieked at me breathlessly, her eyes searching me wildly. I braced meself, dropping me head. It took all I had to remain firm under her pleas. “Donovan! I must have you . . . within me . . . please . . . I need to feel you in me . . . NOW!”

  Seizing control of the situation, Aislinn promptly shifted her position, nearly sliding me into her with one move. I choked upon me breath as I felt the head of me cock easily pop into place, nestling its way into her warm, slick opening. However, I had presently made up me mind that even that would not do; it would be just as reprehensible to all
ow her to ruin herself.

  But oh my God, how incredible I can imagine she would feel wrapped about me! How can I deprive meself of this gift? No, I mustn’t! I will have the opportunity soon enough when the time is suitable and no ill feelings will be yielded as a result.

  Before I could change me mind, I shifted me own pelvis back, gripping her by the arms and lifted her up as I rose to me feet in one motion. The expression upon her face looked as though I had slapped her hard across the face.

  “Aislinn, please do be sensible,” I said, endeavouring to keep the regret from tainting me tone. I did not wish her to know how difficult it was fer me, lest she persist in her attempt to drive me over the edge. “You know do this we cannot.”

  I looked at her, watching as, to me dismay, the tears welled up within her eyes.

  “None of those conventions matter to me in the least!” Aislinn screamed harshly. “So cruel you be, Donovan!”

  And then she slapped me. And what a hearty slap it was! I stood there in shock, though I knew she had every right to act out in that way. I more than deserved it fer allowing it to go so far. Shame washed over me at bringing her to this point, at leading her to feel less than positive towards me.

  “When you kiss me in that way, you must know you make me so HUNGRY!”

  “Oh, but Aislinn, so very kissable you be! Far too irresistible, delicate and elegant!” I countered sweetly, endeavouring to smooth things over, to elevate her mood. I gave her a soft kiss, though nothing that could be reminiscent of our passionate kisses of just a few moments before.

  Instead of helping the situation, she only appeared to be rather irritated with me attempt, clearly not in the mood fer me to be sweet.

  “Yet, apparently, not irresistible enough,” Aislinn sulked, pouting her lips against mine, which still served to tempt me, even as I had infuriated her.

  Still I held her by the arms. “Aislinn, overturn me whole world you do!” I assured her, displaying me sincerity.